ok, i've decided to lengthen my last few posts till the end of the year before giving up blogging, so i can end it on a good note.
defence science camp is really fun and interesting. previously i had always thought robotics was just something for nerds. now i realise it is so much more. robotics, for one, hell ain't easy. especially the programming. and the people are hilarious. people like wen bo, carlos, eugene, xuandao (the NJ ONE- team NJ YEAH.) and benedict. haha. the whole group of buggers lah. anyways, back to what i was talking about. robitics is COOL. and the buggers are really good at it, and are pretty helpful too. my point is: i've enjoyed the camp so far. even though me and xuan dao will get pwned during friday's competition, we still enjoy the camp.
which brings me to the part about the competition. man. instadeath. we're gonna insta-lose i think. i'm a total n00bxx0r at robotics. xuan dao has some experience but sometimes makes funny errors in the programming (HAHA). all the best to us then.
i've been reviving old songs from my music library. here's an old song i dug out. somehow i like it again.
Almost - bowling for soup
I almost got drunk at school at 14
Where I almost made out with the homecoming queen
Who almost went on to be miss texas
But lost to a slut with much bigger breastes
I almost dropped out to move to LA
Where I was almost famous for almost a day
And I almost had you
But I guess that doesn't cut it
Almost loved you
I almost wished u would've loved me too
I almost held up a grocery store
Where I almost did 5 years and then 7 more
Cuz I almost got popped for a fight with a thug
Cuz he almost made off with a bunch of the drugs
That I almost got hooked on cuz you ran away
And I wish I woulda had the nerve to ask you to stay
And I almost had you
But I guess that doesn't cut it
Almost had you
And I didn't even know it
You kept me guessing and now I'm destined
to spend my time missing you
I almost wish you would've loved me too
Here I go thinking about all the things I could've done
I'm gonna need a forklift cuz all the baggage weighs a ton
I know we had our problems I can't remember one
I almost forgot to say something else
And if I cant fit it in I'll keep it all to myself
I almost wrote a song about you today
But I tore it all up and then I threw it away
And I almost had you
But I guess that doesn't cut it
Almost had you
And I didn't even know it
You kept me guessing and now I'm destined
to spend my time missing you
And I almost had you [x3]
I almost wish you would've loved me too.
-END SONG-
well, i guess love makes you do stupid things. some of these stupid things cant be explained. love is something that can't be forced. if you do, you do. if you don't, you don't. sometimes that sucks don't you think.
i've done too many stupid things for my own good, maybe i'm not meant for love, but more of hate? i really don't know. i guess some things can't be explained. we'll just have to find out for ourself. maybe some things take time to realise and find out for ourselves. feel for ourselves how its really like. maybe some things are meant for us and some others aren't. maybe through each failure comes success in the future. maybe through each success comes a fall in the future. maybe life is just a vicious cycle?
P1 (1st Premise): i hate vicious cycles.
P2 (2nd Premise): life is a vicious cycle.
>C (Conclusion): i hate life.
like jem says all the time: life sucks.
almost forgot. not all pain is bad. some pain is good. you'll grow to realise this too.